THE BLOOMING ONION

Sifting through the ashes to find a new life blooming from a tragedy.

 

By

Grant Walters

for Literary Non-fiction, ETSU

12-9-4

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About the author:  Grant Walters is a sniveling depressant who writes about sniveling depressants.  He was the head writer of a student produced drama series.  Grant also has two writing credits in independent films.  They are The Bed we lie in, and The Café Vuh.  Grant plans to finish his undergraduate degree hopefully in the not so far future, then he has plans of organizing a secret society with goals of taking over the world.

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            The Texas tumbleweed, rose bud onion, and my personal favorite, blooming onion, are all names for a common appetizer treat.  To call the blooming onion a common onion ring, would desecrate the overall beauty of such a delightful treat. The blooming onion is something more.  The appetizer is batter dipped spicy goodness with a side serving of ranch dressing.  I wish I could say I continue to allow my taste buds to enjoy the insatiable treat that is the blooming onion, but I can’t.  A blooming onion helped in the destruction of something I hold dear; my house.

            The year was 1998 and I was a junior in high school searching for something to believe in that was more than what I could find at a country high school.  My grades were slipping, but what could I do, I was working more than I attended school.  I had motives of course.  This was the time period of my life when I actually understood why people saved money. I had not made it to college yet, where all you need do is sign your name to a piece of paper to receive plastic money.   My motives were simple.  I wanted a car.  My parents couldn’t afford to purchase me one because my father had just been laid off after 16 years.  This was a hard year altogether.  I kept asking myself why so many other people had so much more than I did.  I became resentful from these observations. The more time I could spend away from home was for the better.  I worked my shift to save every penny for what would one day become the lamest mustang on the road. Until then one of my parents would have to drive me around.  This was my life, it wasn’t fancy by any means, but at least it had structure to it.  Structure is something I longed for.  The kind of structure my brother Ben had found in the Navy.  I was proud of him although I would never admit it.

            Ben was a good chap if you get right down to it.  Sure, we had our battles just like every other sibling’s do.  It was normal to throw knives at each other or to push or be pushed out a window.  I was younger, so he usually got in trouble before I did.  My parents would always tell him “You should know better Ben, set the example”.  It was hard not to smile in victory during that speech. Things began to change little by little as his departure date for boot camp started closing in.  Our parents would say that we actually began to like each other’s company.  The only thing that was keeping us apart during this time was the other company Ben was holding.  He was dating this completely horrid individual by the name of  Liz.  It was a little scary because this was the first girl who had lasted more than a week with him. She was also the only girl who I had ever had a true dislike for.  All I could see in here was the complete materialism of someone trying to buy happiness, and the constant put downs she made on my brother.  It was funny.  Just a year before I would have found all the insults at Ben’s expense to be funny, but people change I guess, little by little over time.  The two were to be married and Liz was to move with him to Chicago after he had completed basic training.

            When Ben was living in Chicago I had opportunities to visit him on occasion.  I fell in love with the place.  It wasn’t so much that it was Chicago, but rather that it was a big city.  The bright lights and all the happenings on made me realize a little bit more about myself.  The reason I feel so out of place in the country home I have lived in all my life is that I belonged in a city home.  It didn’t take brain surgery to figure that out, but what has become pressing even still today is how to stay optimistic until that happens.  The cool thing was I knew the Navy was going to move Ben and his wife all over the country, and I would always have a house to stay in.  His move from Chicago to California was one of big excitement for me.

            Due to the distance of the move, the Navy saw fit to give extra time in between so that Ben and his wife were to be in transition for many days before the voyage.  What this meant to my family and me was that they were to use my parent’s house as some kind of dumping ground for personal belongings.  I decided I was going to try something new during Ben and his wife’s visit.  I was going to be the bigger man, and no matter what conversation was going to take place, I decided to keep my mouth shut.   Honestly, I didn’t want to mess up my chances of going to California.  No matter what happened I wasn’t going to force any issue.  When my parents picked me up from work on the day of their arrival I was somewhat excited.  Usually the first day of a brother visit consisted of dinner out at a steak house and the rehashing of stories among us.  The assumption of this occurrence caused me not to eat on my break earlier that day.  No way was I going to use my money for fast food I eat everyday when a big juicy steak was to be had.  Since I’m currently a vegetarian, I can’t exactly describe the full disappointment I had the moment I realized that wasn’t going to happen, but I assume it was pretty big.  So I ask “what’s for dinner then”?  I knew with the look that my mom gave me that the worst was at hand.  My sister-in-law was cooking dinner, and at this point I had yet to be able to keep anything she has ever made to stay in my stomach.  I hope for the best and sink into my oversized coat in the back seat.  At least this way no one can see me riding around with my parents.  “She’s making one of those onion things that you like so much“ says mom.  God help us.

            We arrived at our house and the normal hugs and so forth pursued.  The smell in the air was that of fried sausages and peppers and onions.  The smell was a little think, but for the first time I actually thought the dinner might not only be edible, but actually might taste good.  We all talked in the small kitchen in the middle of our split foyer house.  I started to sweat from the congested room and high heat of each stove burner.  My sister-in-law was cutting a big onion and by this point I was starving to the last inch of me.  It didn’t help that my dad was already sneaking bites of sausage from the plate. Every time I try to sneak food someone always says “can’t you wait, inconsiderate”?  My brother was getting drinks as my  Sister-in-law was dipping the nicely cut onion in the make at home batter.  My dad and I hung back to talk.  We always have some kind of inside joke going on between us.  The jokes usually keep us busy and out of trouble during certain situations.  These situations include sister-in-law visits, holiday’s with certain family members, and ignorant people we encounter.  During this time mom was the only one attentive enough to react when a small flame arose from a black cast iron skillet full of shorting oil.  She pulled out a lid from under the cabinet of the stove and covered the fire distinguishing it.  She lectured Liz for the mishap, a normal occurrence with my mother.  She is the kind of person that would iron my white t-shirt on pajama day at school.  There’s a wrong way to do things, then there is her way of doing things.  No one was disputing her being wrong on this occasion however. 

            It happened instantly; no one could have reacted fast enough.  The lid was removed after what seemed to be sufficient time.  The fireball went upward into the cabinet above the stove.  Everyone was chaotic.  My mother was trying to get the flour out of the cub bard already engulfed in flames.  My father grabbed a kitchen towel and was swatting at the fire that was spreading around the square kitchen we were all standing in.  Ben rushed town stairs to hit the emergency breaker to turn of all power to the house.  I watched in confusion wondering why no one was going for any water, but in my ignorance I discovered why grease and water don’t mix.  It couldn’t be controlled, our house was filling up with smoke and my asthma was closing my lungs.  It wasn’t until Ben ran back in the room screaming for us to leave that everyone finally realized the severity of the situation.  We ran to the front yard as our mother ran to her car.  In Our confusion we watched both her pilling away down the driveway of the house, and the horror of a ceiling fan falling from our kitchen.  It wasn’t but a few moments when I realized where my mother had gone.  The distinct rattle of her car was driving back up our road followed by the sound of sirens. My mother was a hero that day.  Without her quick thinking we would have lost our entire house to flames.

            We were all alive.  Our possessions were damaged from smoke and water damage.  My lungs also didn’t work properly for a while, but for some odd reason the fire would help me.  It made me realize how much I take for granted.  I say this up until the point in my life when a finally realized a dream and bought my first car.  That Mustang wasn’t the safest car to drive.  Not only did it take oil and transmission fluid every other time I got gas, I also tried to burry myself in my coat again.  Driving is a little hard when you cant see over the steering wheel.  The fire also gives me more explanation to people when they ask why I dislike my sister-in-law.  I simply say “she burned down my house”.  I exaggerate because the fire wasn’t all her fault, and my house wasn’t burned completely.  I still like to watch the reactions from people.

             Every time my sister-in-law cooks a meal, every time I see a 16-year-old kid driving a bran new car their parents bought them, and every time I pass by the small apartment me and my parents lived in for many months, all I say is “damn you blooming onion”.